Prince Harry has admitted he felt “angry and ashamed” at his handling of Meghan, the Duchess of Sussex’s struggles during her early days in the British royal family.
In their documentary series Harry & Meghan, the couple claimed Meghan experienced “racism in the media” and “anger” that led to suicidal thoughts.
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Harry criticized himself for responding to the “devastating” situation as “institutional Harry” rather than “husband Harry”.
“Institutional Harry” is a reference to the perceived side of yourself that has been influenced by 30 years in the royal family.
Referring to racism towards Meghan between 2018 and 2020, author Kehinde Andrews said that “Britain is perfect at that, nobody wants to be openly racist – that wouldn’t be civilized and that wouldn’t be British.
“But it’s perfectly fine to whistle and nod to dogs. ‘She’s a diva, she makes people cry,’ that kind of angry black woman came to the fore quite suddenly.”
Harry added that his wife’s race has even linked her to “drugs and terrorism”.
“Anger sells,” said one reporter of the hate against the Duchess, “racial anger is just another step on the same path.”
Meghan said she thought tabloids were a thing, but it really hit her on a tour of Liverpool, where a woman said to her: “What you are doing to your father is not right”.
The stranger’s comment was in reference to one of the tabloid stories about her relationship with her father, Thomas Markle.
“My entire midsection was shaken to the core,” Meghan said after hearing the comments.
‘I was really scared’
“The lies were one thing, you kind of get used to that living in this family,” Harry said.
“But what (the media) did to her and the effect it had on her, enough of the pain, enough of the suffering!
“Nobody sees what happens behind closed doors.”
Friends of Meghan chimed in, with one noting: “It was grim, she was just lost in on herself.”
Another friend added: “I had never seen her like that, it was hard – it’s very hard to talk about. I was really scared.”
Meghan then reflected on the horrific suicidal thoughts she had at the time and thought to herself, “All of this will stop when I’m not here.”
“And that was the scariest part, it was such a clear feeling,” she recalled.
Meghan’s mother, Doria Ragland, looked back on their difficult time together, where she “remembers telling me that – that she wanted to take her own life – and it really broke my heart.
“I knew it was bad, but being constantly attacked by these vultures just picking at her mind that she would actually think about not wanting to be here, that’s not easy for a mother to hear.
“And I can’t protect her, H can’t protect her,” she said, wiping away tears.
“Angry and Ashamed”
In support of himself during this time, Harry said he was “devastated”.
“I knew she had issues, we both had issues.
“But I never thought it would get to this stage and the fact that it got to this stage made me angry and embarrassed.
“I didn’t handle it very well. I treated it as “institutional Harry” as opposed to “husband Harry”.
“And what took over my feelings was my royal role.
“I had been trained to worry more about ‘what will people think if we don’t go to this event, we’ll be late’.
“And looking back on it now, I hate myself for it.”
Harry said that what his wife “needed from me” at the time was “much more than I could give.”
Reflecting on the difficult time, Meghan added that she “wanted to go somewhere to get help but I wasn’t allowed to”.
“They were concerned about what that would look like for the institution.”
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